I BET YOU DIDN’T KNOW: That Western Africa is the most homophobic region on the continent. This region, consisting of 16 countries, houses Nigeria, perhaps the most homophobic country on the planet, with 98% of the country’s population opposed, aggressively to same-sex relations. 71 countries worldwide still criminalize homosexuality, with Africa contributing to 32 of these.
Last night as I was drafting the promised article on sex tourism, which by the way will now have to wait, I got a call from my friend Josh* (not his real name). Josh is a 16 year old Togolese friend I made a couple of months back. He is one of the sweetest and reasonable kids I’ve met whose only crime was being born gay in the worst region of the world. And he was calling regarding just that. Like I always do with anyone needing advice, I keep quiet and let him pour out his heart first. The 13 minutes of his lamentation goes something like,
“Hello Eliot*, I need your help. I feel like I’m on the verge of breaking. It is about school. Today a teacher came to class and as he began teaching, he talked about homosexual people, he said bad things: like we are not normal, that wild animals are better than us, and I felt bad, I cried, it was not the first time. Homophobic talks are more in my school, and the most terrifying thing is that the hetero guys in my class suspect I am gay and they make fun of me every time. I am not free to study anymore as they keep on showing up to mock me with their distasteful jests. Sometimes they are so cruel that I can’t help but break down, and I can’t tell anyone because being gay in my community is unheard of…. Sometimes I just wish I were dead…. They don’t understand i haven’t chosen to be gay…. I can’t change….. I have tried but I can’t……”
My heart instantly went out for Josh, as it always does for anyone facing homophobia. It is sad for such a young kid to be faced with such cruelty. Personally I know what it feels like to be discriminated and hated for your sexual orientation. I have been there a couple of times in the past. But what breaks my heart even more is the fact that these people who break us are the very people we would have looked up to for guidance. Josh tells me that this specific teacher is a philosophy teacher who “seems to know more about real life than me.”
The other day this self-proclaimed Nigerian “man of God” posted on my Facebook timeline what I wold consider very insensitive remarks regarding homosexuality. He said that homosexual people are individuals who are mentally disturbed and deserve to be locked away in psychiatric asylums where the devil in them will be forced to come out. When we have such persons in the society who are considered mentors and role models hating on the minority groups, then we have a lost generation. It is sad to observe how many helpless people such remarks push past their brinks, and how many suicides they spur.
Growing up I have had the privilege of interacting with people from all walks of life and schools of thought. I have opened up to people who have both accepted me for who I am and those who have cursed me out. In all these I have made a prime observation; homophobic people are generally sad people. These are individuals with the shittiest jobs, dysfunctional families, sad childhood upbringings, pathetic school grades, and struggle to be loved. The liberal-minded straight people who love me for who I am are happy people. They have everything good going for them. they are filled and surrounded with love. It is important to remember this as you fight for your happiness because it helps you categorize people, and rise above their hate.
Living in this society can be damning. You never know who to turn to. You might think the whole world is against you, and sometimes it may be true. But I love reminding people that they are beautiful, and they are wonderful, and they are love. It does not matter what the rest of the world thinks. The homophobic men and women in the society call gay men evil and pathetic, yet in real sense they are the evil ones. A gay man’s only crime is loving another man, trying to be happy. The only crime a gay man commits is living their truth. There is nothing evil about love, no matter what anyone else says.
I’ve come to learn that we are defined by what we consume, and the vibes we entertain. For a very long time I wanted my family to accept me the way I am. But all they saw was this evil animal committing an abomination. And as sad as this may sound, sometimes we have to look out for ourselves, even if it means distancing ourselves from people we consider family. I had to distance myself from my family because they could not love me the way I am, and that’s too much negative energy for any of us. If someone cannot love you the way you are, then they are not worthy of you.
Here is what I have always believed to be true; the only factor that helps me rise above all these negativity; happy people project love and positive vibes while sad people project their insecurities and fears onto others. I am not bothered by homophobia anymore because these are sad individuals whose lives are pathetic and have nothing good going for them. It is easier for them to hate and hurt others thinking that it will help their pain go away. Homosexual people just happen to be an easy and vulnerable target for this.
If by the end of reading this article you shall not have remembered half of what I said, here is what I want you to carry home; you are beautiful, and you are smart, and you are love. And if someone tries to tell you otherwise, ask them to look into their lives and mention any one good thing they have going for them.